August 19, 2006 at 4:34 pm #16658
I wrote this for my training log, but decided to post here as well.
Practiced the full inner smile just now. It`s easier to go through the entire practice than it was at the begining. Had a strange experience while doing yang practice, while smiling throughout the universe.
Felt some sort of intelligence, different kinds. Stars and galaxies. And also one other. All seemed a bit unfriendly and dark, but possible it was just their impersonal relation like Michael says. However, the other inteligence I felt was even darker than the ones of the stars and galaxies.
The thought crossed my mind that it was the Demiurg, the gnostic “evil” god of creation. But I`m not sure whether it was just an image I projected on this inteligence, considering I did a paper on Christianity and Gnosticism a few days ago and things still remained in my mind. It was kind of hard to smile to universe intelligences, but in particular to this intelligence. The others felt very large, but this felt like it is pervading the whole universe. I even think I saw some kind of forms, faces, but very different from anything I have ever seen with my eyes.
I could sense that there is more beyond the pervading intelligence, also something felt like yin/yang concept maybe and more beyond, but not sure because I couldn`t get beyond this intelligence this time, except for a “glimpse”.
Also, while Michael is saying that you feel safe in this wast space, darkness or something like that, I didn`t feel very safe initially. Only after a while of “intesified” smiling did I overcome this. But still didn`t feel quite “safe”, more like neutral to everything, not safe and yet not endangered.
I posted it in this section, as I feel it is a bit related to the current debate. Well, at least in my view, since I have an opinion (even though I`m nowhere near as experienced as you guys), and questions, that I might share later. And they are somewhat related to this experience.
So any thoughts, comments on my experience?August 21, 2006 at 1:37 pm #16659August 23, 2006 at 12:14 am #16661
Hopefully helpfull tips. You may already know them.
Try not to smile exspecting to get a smile back.
Notice where you run to when confronted with something scary.
Do you need to know what some thing is to accept it?
Try your best not to take things personally.
Remember to relaxe and let the mojo happen.
You are safe and free to accept the universe.
Remember to accept your feelings about the process.
Remember to ask for help and open up to your guides.
A image that might help. Imagen being a emperor on a throne of gold. Grounded, powerful, Open, Shining.
🙂 May you be the best that you can be.
p.s. fun thing to do is to say I love ( ) out loud and feeling what resistance there might be.August 24, 2006 at 5:19 am #16663
Thanks for the tips.
What do you mean by this: “Notice where you run to when confronted with something scary. “? I mean, what is the purpose?
“Do you need to know what some thing is to accept it? ”
I don`t know, maybe. Not sure. Though with practice of inner smile, I imagine that I˙ll be able to accept everything.
Thanks again.August 24, 2006 at 4:44 pm #16665
Where do you go in your energy body? I do not need a answer. The answer is for you. I thought they might be nice questions to open up some exploration.August 24, 2006 at 7:44 pm #16667
Thanks, will try to explore next time I`m confronted with something scary.August 31, 2006 at 2:53 pm #16669
hmm… dark intelligence…
I think you need to discover whether it is your reaction to this intelligence that brings out the dark feeling or you feel that the intelligence is actively broadcasting darkness…
It may just be your reaction to something you’ve not experienced yet… like when you were a kid the deep end of the swimming pool may have felt sinister in some way.
If not you may actually have hapened on to some intelligence that may be interested in you for some reason… If it’s dark or ‘evil’ feeling, it’s quite likely looking for some help (maybe your smiling energy attracted it to you)… if you feel the need to deal with this there are a number of ways to go about it. See if you can communicate with it – ask if it wants to communicate with you and wait for a response… if you get into a comunication you can ask it some questions – like what it wants from you etc. you may be able to resolve it like that.
A simpler way would be to reconnect with the smiling/loving energy and fill the thing to the brim with it, if it smiles back – great, if not then you’ll have to start comunicating.
saying all this – it may all actually be far simpler than that… so just check next time and report back.August 31, 2006 at 5:12 pm #16671
Thank you for the advice. Will attempt next time.
Since this experience I have not done the entire practice, as it takes around 90 minutes, and my usual practice takes me between 2-3 hours already. So I just did the short version a few times.
Will probably do it this weekend, as I`m visiting my grandparent and will have a lot of time. Will post how it goes. 🙂
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