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December 15, 2010 at 2:08 am #36140singing oceanParticipant
Another option would be to view it in light of how you used your will to steer the course of events. Instead of just giving in to her repeated demands, you held on to YOUR course based on the observations that it was the balanced thing to do in the situation. In return, maybe she learned from it in that she will not achieve resolution by simply saying “pay the amount that was punched in”, and will maybe have to change her ways next time.
Its all a learning process. If you just let go of it, what have you learned? Eventually your shen will let it go anyway once you have processed it. I find that intense emotional situations (like performances for me) require a lot of thought and processing, but they naturally let go of themselves once they have been processed.
December 15, 2010 at 6:00 pm #36142StevenModeratorHi Chris,
What you said was very insightful and makes perfect sense.
Thank you very much for sharing.I feel very honored to have been able to
read and experience your sharings and Wendy’s
sharings on your mutual relationship . . .My utmost love to the both of you, wishes of
continued success on your special relationship,
and blessings on your upcoming marriage!!!Love and qi,
StevenJanuary 2, 2011 at 8:58 pm #36144StevenModeratorMy hermit retreat is coming to a close . . .
I will be leaving the day after tomorrow (the 4th).
It’ll formally be about a day and a half sooner than
my original plan, but I need to get home to do some
laundry and a few things before another workshop I
have scheduled for this upcoming weekend. 😉Even so, it’s been a fabulous time, and it will be
my longest such retreat yet (3.5 weeks)Long periods of jubilation and bliss, of enjoying the
silence, of enjoying the solitude, while spending
my days doing qigong, meditation, listening to
inspirational/spiritual CDs, reading similar materials,
etc.Periods also punctuated by “hard times” . . .
Difficult deep feelings of loneliness, of feeling unloved,
very primal feelings . . .
Memories of all kinds of things flooding back at strange
and unexpected times, memories of recent things, memories
of things from ten years ago, memories of when I was
only 5 years old . . .
Some of these were quite challenging . . .At the same time, this is “good stuff” also.
In fact, aside from having some devoted practice time, it is
one of the reasons for coming and putting oneself into such
a position. Stuff comes up. And there is no escape. There
is no place to run to. You have to face it.
You have no choice. The only way out, is through.It makes you stronger.
It lets you appreciate life in a whole new way . . .I’m both ready and eager to get back home and
connect back in with a “regular” life, while equally
well feeling I could be happy here for another couple months . . .Steven
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