Inner Smile

Hey there,

Now that I’ve read your last post I am certain about what you mean about witnessing and what is going on with you.

Yogic stuff in general is very one-sided. Few actually resolve the earth/sexual/psychological energies which are at the root of everything we’re doing here with standard yogic practices because they are designed to sublimate the “lower” energies of the body rather than to integrate them in an effort to “get off the ground.”

Michael has written extensively about this (see his article “In Search of Spiritual Orgasm”.

Observing is effete and cold and pretends to make one spiritual when what it really does is separate you from your self. It does not work on the principle of loving acceptance and nurturing of whoever you are and pushes the “po” and “hun” in you apart.

Po is your earthly, yin self. Hun is your heavenly, yang self. Alchemical practices are designed to let the two get together in harmony so you are a wholeness. Most yogic stuff is designed to move your energy up the spine into the head/heart so you do not fall prey to the pull of your earthly nature. Unfortunately, the results are bad.

I clearly remember my yoga teacher in the early 70s saying to me, “Never meditate on anything below your heart.” What a mistake that was! It’s like having a three floor home and being afraid of using the bottom floor.

The inner smile and orbit circulate the water and fire energies which naturally mix and replenish each other when we sleep. (That is the predominant function of sleep.)

You are not really “separate” when you practice the inner smile. What you are is larger. You have created space in which to embrace what is happening inside you rather than to separate from it. So it gives you the feeling of having room to move while simultaneously embracing everything that’s going on inside you (rather than trying to control it or get away from it).

If you are feeling overwhelmed, sometimes it is because you are not relaxed and rooted, trusting comes from this. You are getting into a level of acceptance of yourself and your energies which you have kept at bey previously. Relax. Breathe. Feel. And smile to it all. Let it all in and let it all out.

If you are not doing standing practices, I recommend that you start now.

In the spirt of “full embodiment!”
Smiles,
Alexander

Barry, you might try playing with the dynamic part of you that oppresses and explodes. That has a lot of good energy in it. Make it an ally.

Something I’ve said a lot on this forum is that all our aspects have ultimate good intentions. Your oppressor/exploder has a job to do and you gave it to him. Find out what it is. Help him do it. Find out what he is really trying to accomplish and assist him instead of trying to control him or whatever you’re doing.

If you want more details on the process of how to do this let me know.

-A

Hiya,

You’ll have to let this evolve for you in an organic way but the basic process is called “Core Transformation” and is from a book of that name by Connie Rae Andreas.

Every behavior we have has within it a positive intention and is a part of us that is trying to get to a “core state.” A core state can be anything like oneness, wholeness, complete peace, completion…

The technique is a series of steps, all the same, up which you take that aspect of your personality.

Take a few minutes when you won’t be disturbed and go into a nice meditative state with the intention of communicating with that aspect and resolving the relationship.

When you’re ready ask the part if it’s willing to do the process with you.

If it is, you go on. If it’s not you have to interact with the part of you that is resisting. The process for this is the same.

Let’s assume you have no initial resistance. You can ask for the part’s name and for a visual/sensory on it to build contact. Whatever comes is right.

Let the part know you intend to help it fulfill its prime directive. That you want to help it get to where it has been trying to go all this time.

Since this is a heart process and since you are talking to yourself you must be honest and sensitive or it won’t work.

Connect with the part and its behavior and ask it what it wants. Just that. Find out what it wants by creating oppression.

This is where it becomes really interesting. You then say to the part: “Imagine and feel at the deepest level what it would be like to fully experience having that.”

So what you’re doing is giving that part permission to have it and telling it that it has the ability to create that experience on its own without you. Parts like this are trying to get us to give things to them. There is the deeply imbedded belief in their own powerlessness. You turn the power over to them for their own fulfillment while you guide them to it.

You sit back and don’t interfere with the process this aspect goes through. It will likely be very short but you don’t have to know what’s going on. Ask it to tell you when it’s done.

This is step one and it is repeated over and over through the levels until you get to the core state.

So if your part creates oppression and then explosion because, say, it wants “release,” you let it experience “release.” You probably will feel a shift when it goes there. Then you say, “Now that you’ve got release, and it’s yours fully and completely, what do you want that’s even more important? What comes after that?”

The answer might be “power.”

You then ask the part to completely experience that until it has it and feels fully satisfied.

Now that it has power it might want or be brought into a state of, say, “control.”

You see? You keep going like that getting closer to the core every time.

With each step you have to allow the part to fully experience the fulfillment of each thing its getting. Eventually, after several steps, the part will reach its ultimate state and there will be nothing else it wants after that.

So you may have a progression like this:

Oppression > release > power > freedom > peace > being loved > fulfillment > unity.

If there is nothing else the part wants after it hits unity (in this example) then its reached its core state.

Have it fully and truly experience that until it is totally satisfied and then ask it to see how having that state affects its desire to do the behaviors it started out with- to oppress and then explode. Because it now has its core state it will no longer be interested in doing those things.

Whatever depth you are able to reach in your subconsciousness at the time will determine how much psychic energy is freed by the process and how much change you will see from it. It is important that you confirm for the part that what it has achieved is real and lasting and belongs to it. It can access the state all the time now. It is likely that the part will be ecstatic about its new experience and reveal itself to you very differently then.

When you reach this point take the part back to the time when it was first born in you. You ask it when this was. It will tell you an age. Sometimes it is pre-birth. Whatever comes is right. Just go with it.

You instruct the part to take its core state back in time to when it was born and to jump into your timeline and go forward through all your life experiences together until it reaches the present.

Remember to breathe a lot through this whole thing so it integrates.

When that’s done send it back once more to the time of your conception and go down the timeline once again.

Then merge the part into your physical body down to the bones.

That will do it.

Giving ourselves what we really want produces alchemy.

Have fun, Alexander