Maharishi – Transcendental Meditation

The Truth

April 16, 2004 – by Earl Kaplan

Dear residents of Fairfield, Heavenly Mountain, the Spiritual Center,
and whomever else may want to read this letter:

Over the past several years my brother, his family and I have been
attacked verbally, emotionally, spiritually and financially for
leaving the TM movement. I have not said anything during this time, not
wanting to fight with anyone. However, I have now come to realize, for the
sake of those who want to listen and for my sake as well, to clear my
conscious of all that I have learned, heard and known, that I must
share the knowledge that has come to me.

We should all be free to listen to our hearts, to follow our own inner
voice and not to be subject to a movement and a so-called “spiritual master”

who rules through lies, fear and deceit. This letter is really for those of you

who have been feeling that something is wrong.

Remember in the Matrix when Trinity told Neo they had been looking for
him because they knew that he could just feel there was something
missing, something out of order but he just couldn1t figure out what.

Well, that is how it started to be for me and TM. I knew something was
wrong. I remembered that when I started I was promised enlightenment
in 5-7 years. I remember in 1975 Maharishi promising that now that there
were all these governors that there would be world peace. I remember
in1977 at the end of the siddhis course Maharishi saying that it was
just the hard knots of stress in the environment that needed to be cracked
before we all started to fly and that he would call us back in a few
years when we were ready to take off. I remember in the early 90’s,
Maharishi told my brother that if we built the spiritual center that
he would fill it up with 1000 Purusha and 1000 Mother Divine. He said as
soon as we finished the buildings and he moved Purusha and Mother
Divine there that people would start to fly, they would go into
enlightenment. He also told me that if I gave him enough money for his
India project that he would create a 10,000 group that would bring
world peace right away.

For 30 years I listened and responded and devotedly donated more money
to Maharishi’s projects than anyone ever had. I had this deep yearning
to try to help mankind. I wanted to help create a peaceful world and I
wanted to gain my own inner enlightenment. I never wanted any public
attention and for many years no one even knew I was the leading donor
in the movement. After I had given all this money and waited patiently
for the results that Maharishi had promised, I started to wake up. I
started to realize that I had been misled. WE ALL HAD!

Where are the 7000 pundits Maharishi had raised hundreds of millions
of dollars for and had repeatedly promised to bring to the U.S.? Where is
the world peace he promised us all those years. Where is there one
person who has gotten enlightened in the TM movement? Maharishi said
even a person in Cosmic Consciousness can perform the siddhis
successfully and fly. In unity consciousness the prescriptions of
Patanjali are not needed to get the results, they just happen.

Please show me one or two people who can fly, who can perform the
siddhis successfully, who are truly enlightened and I will admit that
I am wrong. But really, no one in the TM movement can do so. The true
believers in the TM movement actually become incensed when you ask
them to give you a concrete demonstration of their abilities. The truth
that I have come to realize is that the enlightenment that some of these TM
people think they have is just a total delusion. There is no real
substantive proof because there is no valid spiritual experience. The
TM experience is an illusory experience, a sort of dream state brought
about by using a technique that traps one in one’s own mind.

Since I retired three years ago I have been researching spiritual
techniques. I have spoken with a number of holy men from various
traditions. I have traveled to India and met with enlightened Swamis
and visited many of the sacred and holy cites. I have spoken with
pundits who were in charge of the pundit groups. I have spoken with
Dr. Triguna and other individuals who had been high up in the TM
organization. I interviewed members of Guru Dev’s family. I spoke with people in the TM movement who had looked at some of the financial records of the TM organization and I have spoken with investment people who said they have been in charge of investing some of the movement’s assets. I have spoken with old time skin boys (Maharishi’s personal assistants) and old course participants who were involved with Maharishi sexually (verified by the old skin boys).

I have had the good fortune to come across wonderful alternative healing practices that really work and wonderful spiritual practices that are taught by the real representatives of age-old traditional lineages. I have been shocked to discover the secrets behind the real
TM organization and the secrets behind Guru Dev’s death. I have read an extended interview from the real Shankaracharya in which the true traditional spiritual teaching of jyotir math is discussed. I have talked with many higher up people from the TM movement and many people outside the TM movement and all the discussions point to the same thing. Maharishi Mahesh Yogi has pulled off the biggest spiritual scam in modern history. He has successfully diverted a large group of sincere spiritual seekers from the real spiritual path. He has accumulated hundreds of millions if not billions of dollars in assets for his family, the Shrivastavas. He has not only made up his name (he is not a Maharishi) but he has made up a meditation practice which is mechanical and repetitive in nature and which leads to brain washing by occult powers and a siddhi practice which has nothing to do with Patanjali. He has brought to the west a watered down version of ayurveda and a skewered version of Shtapatya Veda. Finally, if you look at all the poor people on Purusha and Mother Divine who are anemic and have advanced stages of osteoporosis, you will know that he has ruined many lives. The true believers in the TM movement will tell you these are all lies. They will tell you that even though they may be suffering from cancer or be penniless, they may be 50 years old, childless and living with their parents, they may have had much better experiences 25 years ago than
they do today, they will insist to you that Maharishi is a God and it is their shortcomings that have caused them to be in such a predicament. Well let me tell you, these poor people are totally brainwashed. I feel bad for all of them. But sympathy is no longer acceptable. I want to share my experiences so that maybe you can wake up. You don1t need to be trapped in the Matrix. There are so many wonderful, loving people in the world and so many spiritually advanced souls walking the earth. Unfortunately, there aren’t too many in the TM movement.

This version of my story really starts about three years ago. I was sitting with Maharishi privately, because at the time I had an open invitation to come to Vlodrop and sit with Mahesh whenever I wanted to. At that time I knew that Mahesh had many tens of millions of dollars, the money he needed to create a 10,000 group. He was talking about building big buildings, buying airlines, etc. etc. I said, Maharishi, since you have the money and supposedly you have enough pundits, why don’t you create a 10,000 group in India and then the world will experience peace and the TM movement will gain great support of the laws of nature and our other activities will then work out. Mahesh looked at me like I was crazy and said: “Earl, if we created the group then we don’t know if it would create world peace or not. We would have to have the group and then see what effect it has.”

I have to tell you, this sort of shocked me after Mahesh for years had been raising hundreds of millions of dollars for his world peace groups. To be perfectly honest, though, this response was somewhat in line with the other responses he had been making to me. When I would ask him spiritual questions he never had answers more than what he offered in the seven steps. Or he might launch into one of his hour long circular discussions of the Ved and creation or the Ved and human physiology. I finally started to realize, Mahesh doesn’t really understand the spiritual process and if I wanted to get enlightened I better take responsibility for the process and seek out people who had been successful in getting others enlightened and who really knew what was going on. So, I started to read and research the subject (two things Mahesh told us never to do, otherwise we might confuse ourselves) and I spoke with numerous people and these are the things I have learned that I think are the most important

1. Even though Guru Dev was a great teacher, he never gave Mahesh spiritual instruction

and he never taught him to teach others. In fact, he told Mahesh he would never have anything to do with anything other than material success.

2. There are very strange events around Guru Dev’s death. The real current Shankaracharya and Guru Dev’s nephew and two Swami’s independent of each other had very similar stories. It is believed that Mahesh had Guru Dev poisoned. During the funeral he then went back to jyotir math and stole the most powerful spiritual artifact Guru Dev had created, a gold and jeweled Shri Yantra. Mahesh, after traveling throughout India, found a man who could activate the outer portions of the Shri Yantra. This gave Mahesh certain occult powers and control over certain astral beings. Mahesh then created a meditation technique and certain mantras that would help people blank their minds. In this blank state (which has nothing to do with transcendence that is talked about in the yoga sutras) these astral beings would brainwash these meditators into certain beliefs and certain actions. In addition, Mahesh would put blocks on people’s nervous systems to block their Kundalini from rising and to siphon off their energy. Now I know this sounds pretty wild but think about it for a while. Why do so many meditators have such a dazed and confused look about them? Why do meditators find it so hard to focus? Why do most people who have been in the movement for thirty years admit that their best experiences in TM were in the seventies and since then their meditations have been going downhill? Why are so many people asleep in the dome? Why do you need to lie down and rest for 10-30 minutes after you have meditated? Why is there so much unstressing? Why are so many meditators so sensitive? They have to go to sleep on time? They can1t watch movies; they have to be careful about their diet. They can’t stand loud noises. They get tired in the middle of the day. It is not for the reasons you have been told. It is not because you are experiencing a refinement of the nervous system. Your physiology is getting weaker. It is because the process of TM is sucking your very life energy out of you. After you meditate in the dome you have to lie down just to recover. When you do proper spiritual practice as discussed in the yoga sutras (and which I have studied), you just need a minute or two to regain an outward direction and then you can get on with your activity with a very clear mind and very good energy.

3. TM is not really a spiritual practice. It does give good rest to a lot of people who lead busy lives, but it does not necessarily rejuvenate the physiology. To understand this point you have to start to read the spiritual texts. You have to understand the yoga sutras and you have to study the Hatha Yoga Pradipika, the major treatise on Hatha Yoga. Many older TM meditators (from the seventies) started TM and were interested in getting enlightened. They were interested in spiritual evolution. Mahesh with his practice and teaching has done an amazing thing. He has diverted the focus and efforts of a large group of spiritual seekers and made it so impossible for them to have spiritual progress that most of them have really lost interest in the idea of getting enlightened. This was one of Mahesh’s true purposes in teaching TM (his other two being to make billions of dollars and to suck energy from his followers). He has succeeded very well. In studying the basic Hindu texts and various other Tantric texts, I have come to understand that spiritual evolution is not a complicated process. The Hatha Yoga Pradipika talks about the eight limbs of yoga. The first two Yama and Niyama are really about living a good life. That is the basis for spiritual evolution. You live a loving, purposeful life. You are directed in your activity, you look after your family and friends, and you do good. In terms of spiritual practice, you have a balance of proper asana positions, pranayama techniques, hand mudras (which enliven certain brain centers) and meditation practice to bring about a holistic growth. The whole point of these practices is to enliven or wake up your kundalini shakti. This term is basic to any discussion of spiritual evolution. Every person has this latent energy in them referred to as kundalini (not creative intelligence, please!). This energy, which lays dormant in the lower chakra, needs to be awakened. It needs to travel up the sushumna enlivening the various chakras until it travels to the crown chakra and reunites with Shiva (pure consciousness). This is the real experience of unity, the reuniting of Shiva and Shakti. It is an experience beyond space and time. It is not the experience of silence moving into silence that the million dollar course participants and Mahesh talk about. It is the genuine spiritual experience discussed in all the scriptures of eternal bliss consciousness. The proper physical, breathing and mental practices, done diligently, have a holistic effect in improving one’s life very quickly. The purpose of spiritual practice is to improve one’s life, not t o make one a slave to that spiritual practice. Most of the long term meditators I have talked to tell me that TM has not brought them good experiences for many years. The ones who have branched out and learned good yoga practices and found good alternative healers seem to be making some progress, a lot more than those who are diligently following Mahesh’s programs.

4. In traditional spiritual teaching in India, an enlightened teacher takes on a few students and gives them a very unique and particular set of practices (asanas, pranayama, hand mudras and meditation techniques) that are geared just for that person. Each person has a different set of practices because each person has a unique physiology, psychology and spiritual make up. The teacher’s responsibility is to help the student with his practices so that both his worldly life and spiritual life improve quickly. The spiritual practices a person is given are like a combination that allow the kundalini shakti to be directed up the sushumna and reach makara point, the chakra of the upper brow. This is the beginning of a seeker’s spiritual life because only the 6th and 7th chakras are considered the spiritual chakras and have to do with spiritual experience. The first five chakras have to do with material life so experience dealing with those chakras is material experience. Because most TM meditators have not had this type of kundalini rising, they are still caught in the material world and have not really begun their spiritual transformation. What brings about spiritual transformation and the refinement of a person’s physiology, psychology and overall life is the infusion of divine light into their being. The establishment of the kundalini shakti at makara creates a situation whereby the shakti, each person’s own inner divine goddess, starts to take over and direct a person’s growth. Only then is real spiritual progress possible. Only when the divine light begins to be seen and infused into a person does real progress take place. In the yoga sutras of Patanjali yoga is defined as spiritual absorption. When one meditates properly they do not experience blank mind. What happens is that a person learns to turn their attention within (pratyahara) and then through one pointed focus on a proper mantra (dharana) they quickly start to become absorbed in the divine light, the self-effulgent self. With the right practice this progress takes place in a matter of days, weeks or months, not decades. If you do not have the right practice then it will take lifetimes to have real progress.

5. I cannot prove this, but I have spoken with a number of people high up in the TM organization and with investment advisors of the TM organization and they have all told me the same thing, Mahesh has accumulated billions of dollars in assets for his family.

6. Mahesh is not a spiritually enlightened Vedic master. I know this is a really hard one to believe and the last one I let go of, but it is the truth. First of all, the darshan which people experience and the experience people have around Mahesh has nothing to do with how spiritually enlightened people are. It is true that Mahesh has strong presence, but so do movie actors and famous athletes. Enlightened people usually don’t project energy like Mahesh does. They keep it more to themselves. Also, people have amazing visual experiences and bliss experiences around Mahesh. But I have now come to see they are illusory. They are an occult trick Mahesh uses to brainwash his disciples. In reality, Mahesh is not interested in spiritual things. In the sixties and early seventies he had sex with a series of girlfriends. I have spoken with some of them in detail. Why do you think the Beatles left? It was because Mahesh put a move on Mia Farrow. She didn1t make it up; he really went after her. Mahesh has been interested in power, in the accumulation of money, and in women. Why does he live in a big house, own helicopters, airplanes, etc? Why does he spend most of his time involved in business planning about making money? It is because he is a businessman who has the desires that other wealthy businessmen have. His spiritual front is his scam and the way he gets people to give him their time and money.

7. The TM-Sidhi program has nothing to do with Patanjali’s teachings. I was on the course when Mahesh made up the program. He simply experimented with different sutras until he came up with something he thought would work. Do you really think that Patanjali had people do the sutras in English? It is not Mahesh’s genius that he figured it all out. If you really want to know about the yoga sutras why don’t you buy four o r five translations and see what the top scholars have to say. The first thing you will find out is that the proper mantra to be repeated in meditation practice (and this is exactly what Swaroopanand, the real Shankaracharya after Guru Dev says) includes the pranava, which is Om, at the beginning and end with the name of your personal deity in between. There is nothing wrong with the repetition or saying the word Om, it is the holiest of sounds and only brings good to life. Mahesh is the only so-called spiritual master I know of who has instilled fear in his disciples about saying Om. I think the problem Mahesh had in people repeating Om is that in the presence of its repetition astral beings lose their power and any evil influence is redirected back to its source. One other important point is that the mechanical repetition of a mantra without meaning or devotion brings no spiritual progress whatsoever. This point is referred to in the yoga sutras and in many discussions of great spiritual teachers. The mechanical repetition of some meaningless word brings no opening of the heart, no love in one’s life, and no unfoldment of true spiritual values. Haven’t you ever wondered why so many people in the TM movement seemed so heartless, especially the administrators at the early courses. It was because their mechanical repetition of a meaningless word was actually closing their heart, not opening it. That is why so many people in the TM movement have
suffered a sort of disassociation with so much of their life where they don’t have the same feelings they used to. It’s not because they are more highly evolved, it is because they are disconnected from their hearts

8. There are no pundits and there will never be a group coming over to the U.S. I spoke with people who had helped organize the early group that was actually in existence but was disbanded long ago. I also spoke with one of the pundits who were in charge of training the pundit boys (the students). There are hardly any real pundits (there used to be around 15) because the movement would use them and then not pay them. I even spoke with Mahesh who personally told me he would never send real pundits to the U.S. because once they got here they would get better paying jobs. He said they would only send the pundit boys because then they could control them. It turns out several years ago my brother actually got approval from the US State Department to bring a group of one or two thousand pundits to Heavenly Mountain. When it came time for the TM movement in India to give the U.S. embassy the names of the pundits who would be coming over, we got word back that Maharishi had change d his mind and felt it was not a good time to send them. We realized then that the pundit thing was just a scam to raise money and since have had this verified by a number of different people.

9. Mahesh installed his own Shankaracharya and keeps him on the payroll. This way when he sends people to India he sends them to his own Shankaracharya who tells people whatever Mahesh wants them to hear. The real Shankaracharya was chosen by the other Shankaracharyas and sits at important spiritual meetings with them. They will not even allow themselves to be seen in the same hall with Mahesh’s Shankaracharya, lest someone get the wrong idea.

10. Mahesh wants your money and he wants it badly. After I had donated so much money and fulfilled all of my commitments, a friend of mine heard Mahesh ranting about the fact that he had not gotten the last half of my fortune. I warn you all, Mahesh will keep milking you for every penny he can get from you until he bleeds you dry and then he will discard you as so much dead wood.

11. The TM organization will stop at nothing to protect their secrets and to smear anyone who tries to get in their way. My brother is now the number one enemy of the movement. Before that, Deepak was the number one enemy. There is always a number one enemy. If you really want to understand the dealings of Mahesh and the TM movement, please read “The Guru Papers, Masks of Authoritarian Power” by Joel Kramer and Diana Alstad. Reading this one book will go a long way to helping you liberate yourself from the years of brainwashing and mental anguish you have suffered at the hands of the TM movement.

12. Mahesh has told everyone never to talk to psychics. I have finally realized why. My brother and I have talked to a number of very well known psychics in the U.S. and we have been amazed. Most of them have never even heard of Maharishi and when they put their attention on him they say the same thing. They find he is a very dark and evil being. They talk about his greed, his sexual liaisons and his need for power and to control his disciples. They talk about astral beings he controls who are able to control other people’s minds. These same psychics can tell you all about your life and things that have happened. I am not into talking to psychics but I think it is interesting how Mahesh always steered us clear of them. We thought it was for our protection, when in reality it was because Mahesh didn’t want you to hear what they had to say about him. Mahesh deals with psychic and occult powers as opposed to the celestial realms and gaining real knowledge. He doesn’t want you to know about this.

13. Finally, I have known some very enlightened children who, upon meeting Mahesh, would comment that what they saw was an evil demon in disguise. At the time I thought they were unstressing. But now I see what was really happening. Mahesh puts on this guise of being a warm and loving spiritual master when in reality he is after money, power and control. These children would actually see his real form, a form most of us are not able to see.

14. Why are people in the TM movement told that if they want to make some real spiritual progress then they have to meditate every day longer and longer periods of time, they have to be far away from normal people, they have to eat certain things, do certain things, live certain ways. It is because TM is not a real spiritual practice; it is a cult. In real practice you start to feel the brotherhood of all mankind. As you become more established in the Self you have more flexibility. Less and less affects you in a negative way. You become less dependent on your outside environment and more dependent on who you are. You are able to see the joy in all situations and be more and more in the moment. Are you trapped in a cult? Are most of your friends TM meditators. Do you live in a Stapatya Vedic house? Do you donate money to the TM movement? Do you not feel so good unless you go to the dome? Do you read other discussions of spiritual texts or do you feel that would be wrong t o expose yourself to others’ opinions? Do you feel a little funny about your family members because they don’t meditate, they eat meat; they haven’t come across the true knowledge yet? Do you feel TM is the highest knowledge and really the only way? Does your mind create circular arguments in discussing your own evolution or spiritual knowledge to make the point that everything Maharishi says is exactly right? Do you feel a little bit sorry for other people who haven1t quite realized that TM is the truth, the light, the only way to God? Do you think that even though you haven’t gotten enlightened yet that it is just around the corner and you know that some day it is coming? Or else, by now it doesn’t matter because you know that some day Maharishi will take care of all that?

Do you feel sorry for me that I have fallen off the path?! Fellow spiritual seeker, I say a prayer for you that one day you can wake up and take back the responsibility for your own spiritual progress and for your own life. The world is a wonderful place and there are so many wonderful people from so many different walks of life. There are so many successful paths to God and to Love and to Self-Realization. Mahesh’s influence and power have diminished significantly. So many people in Fairfield are starting to wake up from a thirty-year dream to recapture their life and to enjoy what is left of this turn on earth. Good luck! With sincere prayers and an open heart everyone can find the truth. But you have to start to look! With love and gratitude to all my friends and acquaintances in Fairfield. One day may you say to yourself, for many years I was a seeker, but now I can honestly say I have become a finder.

Love,

Earl (see more below:)

P.S. Some of the things I have said are pretty far out, but let me ask you this. If you have been meditating for thirty years, do you feel you are making progress or do you just hope one day things will get better. Is your body feeling healthier now than it was 30 years ago? Are you more limber and more energetic or do you have growing health concerns? If you are feeling better, is it from TM or is it because you have started doing Pilates or a yoga practice given to you by someone else or some other good form of exercise? Considering all the meditation you have done and all the ayurveda you’ve done and all the yagyas you’ve done, don’t you think you should be feeling great?

Most people who have invested thirty years into something don’t want to give it up. Maybe when you were a teenager TM got you off drugs. Maybe teaching TM gave you a good direction in life. But come on, that was 30 years ago. TM isn’t working, the TM organization is dying, Mahesh is literally dying and becoming irrational as well, and you’re wasting your life. The good news though, is its not too late. You can improve your life. You can heal your body. You can improve your spiritual process. But if you continue to do what you’ve been doing for 30 years in the prime of your life and it hasn’t worked, I can tell you; it’s not going to work any better the next thirty years. So good luck, you can wake up. You can disconnect from the Matrix and start to become a real person. It is not too late, but as Vasishta said in the Yoga Vasishtha, it is only through your own self-effort that you will make progress on the spiritual path. I pray for you all. To make a transition is not an easy thing, but I can guarantee you, it’s worth it!

Earl Kaplan

As most of you probably know, I was by far the biggest donor in the history of the TM movement. For many years I donated money privately and never sought to have public knowledge of this. I had become very successful and wanted to try to help the world by donating money to build the spiritual cente r of America and later to help create a 7,000 group in India. Maharishi (or better I call him Mahesh, since Mahesh paid some pundits to give him that title) promised David and I that if we built the Spiritual Center, he would fill it with 1000 Purusha and 1000 Mother Divine. He said once this was done that people would gain enlightenment, that they would have mastery over the siddhis and that world peace would be created. He also promised me that if I donated money to India he would create a 10,000 group that would automatically create world peace. These were just a few of the many promises that Mahesh made to me that he never was able to follow through with.

Most true followers in the TM movement believe tha t it is okay for Mahesh to lie, cheat and steal because he is an enlightened sage and anything he does is in accord with the laws of nature. I have to tell you that the laws that apply to Mahesh are the same that apply to each of us. If you lie and cheat and steal you suffer the consequences. Why is any man above being a good, righteous person? I don’t think they are. The amazing things I have learned over the past three years have helped liberate me from a cult mentality that runs rampant in the TM movement. If you are reading this thinking, “poor Earl, he is such a deluded soul,” then I feel sorry for you because you are indeed caught in the matrix of delusion that old Mahesh has so successfully spun over the last 30 years. Why did Triguna leave the movement?

famous beatle song, originally titled, “Maharishi”, (what have you done) you made a fool of everyone…

oh i went thu all the tm training in the mid 80’s with my soon to be wife. it helped us both a lot at the time but i think we were both very mistrustfull of the organizaion and especially i did not like thier mantras so we each i used our own. im sure they were against that. eventually i dropped the tm practice altogether after creating a breath mediation that worked for me. the practice still does not feel right to me. you are right to check it out.

qi
mike 🙂

I used to work for/with Earl.

I wonder if he takes responsibility, or feels responsibility as Mahesh’s leading donor, for co-operatively decieving the souls he says mahesh decieved. In theory, if Earl and David are correct about the revelations posted in association with their names on the internet, then they had a big hand in the deception from start till now… and it continues.

I wouldn’t want that karma.

Luckily, no beings material or etheric can take the place of creator inside our own hearts.

Regardless of where we find it, all the pathways leading towards truth are useful and only steps until we refine our ability to choose.

That’s just a sample of spiritual philosphy that lines up in words, but means nothing until direct experience reveals itself on a soul level, and I don’t by any means suggest that I could tell if you found a true way or not… nor do I suggest I am “there yet” . I know Earl, and I smiled and said hello to David many times years ago. I bleive they both intend for the best for others… whther that comes about materialy in their walk with others, is for those folks to decipher

And as far as my own spiritual practise, it continues to guide me and long ago revealed itself to be ever unfolding beyond putting undue power into external teachers. Some of the best humans I have met were atheists in philosophy but showcased a care for others that is truly rare among so called religious leaders.

In my own life, I suggest to myself daily that transition and transformatioin are/is ever unfolding. And that it is my duty to avail myself to those promtings as they are expressed in this gift of material life.

And I may have recieved “blessing” walking through certain transitions, but I saw long ago that the blessing was beyond those points of relative reality-avenues of reception. Creator is expressed thorugh all things good and evil if you can see deeply enough, you can choose.

One interesting side note to the personal friend I called Earl Kaplan; though I helped him save one of his early businesses years ago, he refused to help me when I was being evicted from my office/attempt at starting my own business just a couple years back. It was before he “woke up” to his participation in what he now calls the deception of TM. I speak these words now from an objective pont of perspective. i am not lobbying in favor of his revleations in this posted area, nor am I lobying against them. I admire his truth search… he reflects now many of my own misgivings expressed to him when he was heartless then… interesting to see he made a transition since we last talked.

His heartless diatribe and refusal to listen to me were all explained back then, as a “directive from Lakshmi” , in the conversation I had with him I found myself grieving in spoken word, voiced to him , about the traits I had seen developing in the TM upper eschelon Earl admits to have participated in. I was practically crying as I spoke those words… I did not feel/think he heard one… but now I see he (maybe) did.

Also, in that conversation… he either intentionally or inadvertantly revealed that he had screwed me out of a few grand 17 years before.. his quoted payment for a deal we had was not what he had truly paid me back then… My only explanation for the discrepancy, after I thought his words through (after the ahrsh no from him) was that he re-framed our past dealing to keep his spiritual illussory identity ( 5 years ago) intact.

Now, he seems to have grown in ways I never expected to read-see.

Maybe he truly thought he paid me fairly, but my own reality these days suggest that I was deluded by his altruistic smile 17 years ago, just has he suggests he was deluded by Mahesh. Interesting. what I learned from all this is to suspect such smiles …in everyone. I guess I got trained by folks like Earl that I could never trust their handshakes… but then again, if you read his letter from a certain point of view, it’s basically what he admtted to furthering until now.

Luckily I jumped free of such ships long ago, and though I am still seeking internally, I have learned that people in the material world cannot be completely trusted … at least now I know it’s up to me to protect myself from the future Earl’s.

Unless, by some chance I mmet him for coffeee today and find out that he gets on his knees and grieves like I do, all the ways I helped the illusions persist, but never realized.

Perhaps these surrenders to the Creator’s will are a necessary soul maturation process thyat one can only accomplish when they get things wrong… no other way for redempion for any of us, unless we need it?

And our own mistakes help us break those barriers to truth of heart, soul and finally surrender.

anyway.

this letter will get me in deep doo dooo. If Earl is hateful.

But, I prefer to believe his is also refining towards potential… and it puts me in awe to understand the huge risk he took in being honest.

You’d have to be a part of the tm expereince to understand why I wrote this.

By the way, I was the guy who made a video in the cold winter that helped build the center Fairfiled has become. I watched folks take credit since then, I never got badges like Earl did or recognition… meanwhile, I ntoiced how certain individuals who used that video to promote tm , always had bigger and bigger screen tvs for watching NFL football. How could I have seen inside those places? I was delivering those appliances whle working for one of Earl’s companies…

I also remember, in those days, that I “heard” my inner guides expalin why a certian info-mercial creator in that small town was goin g to “go under”. I translated this insight to words to Earl that day, and back then he said “don’t say that, …those folks are buying appliances like crazy from us, these days… they are paying your wage… making me profit”, this is approximately how he said it to me, and I repleid, ” I am not judgiing the guy, I am only relating what I saw… he is going down inside 3 months”… and history shows that’s exactly what happened. That info-mercial guy in Fairfield went down super hard inside 3 months… out of nowhere it all collapsed. To tell you the turth, I was really sorry it happened… it’s not what I wanted for that small town… however, if it hadn’t happened, I daresay I would have noticed the warmth of heart that info-mercial guy eventually cultured inside himself as he was being humbled. Anyway. It hurt the business, and the deliveries of refirigerators, tvs, vcrs, slowed significantly. It’s not easy seeing things in process… and I learned a lot since then. Material unfoldment is not the only way to suggest soemthing was right or meant to be… Learn the history that wasn’t written and you find ou that many people fool themselves and each other for long periods of time, but creator will still work it out for the best for all…

I still consider Earl a friend. He probably considers much of what I wrote here to be insignificatn or might disagree… I don’t want to be sued so I want you to know that this is all just opinion posted for discussion and maybe it’s true or maybe I made it all up. It’s easy to get me to disavow just about anything these days. My life is basically just that of a homelss person in the western world, but a servant to mankind/womankind revelaed by action past limits beyond my own safety. And that, has worn me out. I am now in rejuvenation and waitinng for the next step to be revealed.

One call from Earl, if he is the heartless version, will get me to say anything is a lie that I wrote here. whtheer the records exist of not is another matter.

I documented my life and see that I was perfectly full of S**t most of the time, though I could quote truth so eloquently for so many eyars; it wasn’t until I had stood in the first position a few times, before I recognised that speaking truth is meaningless, unless it is backed by expereince.

We all have to be fooled a few times, make a few miscalculations… get burned when we don’t write a contract to protect ourselves… etc.

The whole question I ask myself after all this, is whether I am ready and able to say “no” if by saying “no” I lose monetary advancement. In other words, if I were to have just lived to make money, up till now, wouldn’t I have cultured an inability to say “no”, when money is offered… study andrew carnegie, stanford, other moguls and notice the despair of lives lived working common people to death for money. would you really want to be them?

I already know that the difference between a person who is able to really choose and one who says “yes” because 10 grand happens everytime they say “yes” is this; risk of truting the creator beyond material benefit… not an easy test for anyone… not easy for anyone.
Just witness nowadays how folks are so easily condemned for being poor. but being poor can be a step towards transition through the process of truly being ready to be humbled…

Understanding that no one can take from us what creator has set aside as OUR treasure… and each of us has a treasure waiting… and many more after that.

In theory.

…anyway. And I am proud of Earl telling his truth here, because above all I support people connecting to truth as they see it. I do not post this to paint a libelous picture of Earl since he did show a lot of kindness over the years, and still does to the whole world community…. and I try to forget the harshness of his (later developed) cold hearted nature which, by his recent transitions seems to have been revealed as only a phase… like everything truly should be…

The part I love about the controversies we all discuss in the spoken, written word is that we can watch each other “wake up”, or “get lost” or “refine” asnd eventually notice that we do exactly as the ancient proverb said, before enlightenment, chop wood carry water… after enlightenment, chop wood carry water…

…and I believe “waking up” as a whole planet is the phase we all must nurture.

Dialogue is vital…

In regards to the TM movement, or any movement or practice or cult or process or material ideas… In a a sense, they occupy us for awhile until we are ready to choose something that is beyond …so…it was definitely helpful for souls to be sidelined if they could be so easily confused, don’t you agree?

…and who’s fault is it?

Was it the Kaplan’s for boosting the process thgrough donations, mahesh’s, mine for making a video, …. who’s….. was it the people who intended for world peace, or the ones who gained power and held high office and kept the illusion mesmerizing?

Wasn’t creator working through all of it?

We have enough greedy people in the world… folks who espouse being power hungry, for the sole purpose of gaining power… and others who fool themselves with Altruism for a time… then see more clearly.

I suggest it can all work for the benefit of all… if we each participate.

Blame won’t do it… finding the enemy is only a temporary fix.

It’s really who we become and how we use that… what we impart to the process that tells who we intend to become… if it’s hurtful, we should be connected enough to be ready to change

We all , already know, that people “in charge” of the physical realms already obviously need more help… and if we lag in our choice we are participating with what they create.

Making a difference is a sweet process… and never requires war…. or so I say.

Meanwhile Creator sees fit to allow war, and we each watch it from a distance.

I suggest we can decipher who we are by what fuels our inner peace or steady war internal.

And you can fiind/figure that kind of answer out on your own by the friends you have.

I have only a few.

SO DO NOT BELIEVE A WORD I WROTE HERE.

Meanwhile, just consider all of the disasters that could have come to all of us if the tm sidhis were to work as well as we thought they would! Idiots designing a world so precious and subtle would be far worse than what we see today. I suggest that being fooled, if it was fooled we were, was perhaps for the best…. until now.

It took losing a few really precious things in my life for me to be busted down to a size I can finally live with. That’s a path to humility you can’t buy with money. It’s not for sale.

I can definitely guarantee that my own vow of service has refined itself enough by now for me to understand that there is truth to the saying “the road to ruin/hell is paved with good intention”.

Finally, I’ve realized that it was in my best interest for Earl to refuse me a few years ago… but now is another day. And just because I say that, doesn’t mean he was right.

Funny that truth and what’s right can be two different things in the 3d world.

Many of the things I said to him after he showcassed his heartless heart are now things he says in the letter I just read. Maybe I played a small part in nudging his conscience while he was still “buying his way on the staricase to heaven”. Or so it seems…

maybe, or maybe not.

The illusion of my loyalty towards others, and that I still feel towards the best part of him, and seeing their potential….. well , that illusion is rewarded over time when I witness those folks taking risks towards higher meaning, higher purpose…. and noticing that they are finally taking those risks which cost money/lose them money… Earl could have easily become just a greedy guy hiding inside the tm movement… but he vacated ratehr than that… you gotta admire the guts it must have taken for him to ask himself what he says were the right questions.

IN a sense, it really doesn’t matter if the illlsuions we travel in this projection of material reality- world matter or not…

What matters is how we find ourselves through them, in spite of all we aspir/thought we were….. were rewarded to be… breaking free does break us free… for a time until we have to get on our knees and do it again gropwing is always a little discomforting… change sometimes hurts…so I say… I hope I am wrong… but seems to be true.

…and that Gift is creator’s gift awaiting moment to moment…. ready for us to recieve it when we are rady to recieve it…

No soul, no being, no power, or energy ultimately can interupt IT.

And the space and time of the illusion that it was “ever not here”, well that is what we are growing free of and this gift of life will always be the road towards revelation, no matter what…

It is what it is because it is, and that’s all there is…

any way….

the biggest mistakes can bring us to the tears of surrender faster than some austerites ever could. We are all just one moment away from enlightened, or enlightened already but unable to express it.

…this is how we learn, this is how we grow.

It’s a great thing we can’t get out hands on TRULY big power unless we are capable of forgiveness in full.

… and I am still working on that one.

Earl, I forgive you for forgetting who I was/am/have the potential to become…

And I hope you forgive me for remembering where the gap was all those years.

-T. S.