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Just started reading have not followed completely but, It sounds like you have a case of the dementors. I would mix some outer and inner alchemy. Outer for the physical parasites parasites, and inner for the energetic parasites.
Dr. Hulda Clark makes a great parasite cleanse, with instruction.
http://www.drclarkstore.com/?gclid=CPmz1ML45I8CFReQGgodcnE7CAThis can help with the prostate.
http://www.rockwellnutrition.net/Pumpkin-Caspules-by-Genestra_p_0-399.htmlRecommend you cut out porn. I smile to our curage to break this cyle. If you do not have sucess with your current tools, try picking up new ones. Open up that mouth and let out that beautiful self. Try your best to speak with integrity. If you feel restriction in this area of epression practice till it is smooth flowing. Can you say what you want and need honestly. Just say it, come on baby light my fire, try to set the night on firerrr.
wish you the best.
J-Man with the magic hands.
This one felt like right on the spot!
Yes my conclusion about sex in general is, good if including heart otherwise bad. This as you says will help me even further with reacing my goal in sex. To combine the heart with it. This is of course not necesarily automatically done in a relationship either not even if one in love I guess. Maybe you always need to be observant of if your heart is there or not. Otherwise you go for a ride and that is more adiction than something greate and this creates even more disharmony in a relationship also. Maybe a matter for all men! perhaps woman also.
Looking at some theory from taoism at least as Mantak Chia describes it. Woman are more vulnrable to sex and men to feelings. Your sex free period was perhaps needed to you also. Especially if your husband was more into sex than love for you I think.
Actually there is a connection betwean my illness with the cold and with my relationships. A trauma from a early relationship took me wery hard when about 20 years old. Here I had some cold syndrome just short episodes but definitely psychological in nature. This was the first feeling of coldness not at all close to what I later developed but coldness is the same anyway.
The second time it was worse and this time was about one year before I breake up with another girlfriend who buy the way is my best friend today. This was a period of some months only but I did have some cold problems during the nights. Much sex but not so much real love or passion in that relationship. Love only in a friendly way as it showed to be later also but not the real love for a sole mate. We both new it but we just needed eachother and liked to have company with eashother. In the comfort zone again.
The 3th time was before I breake up with the girl I mentioned earlier.
Seems to be something here.
WENDY WROTE:
“”””Almost all sensitive people I know, including myself have/had an earth problem. Depending on what we encounter in life, the challenges we get, the support we get or don’t get from others, and the ability or neglect to strengthen our inner earth by practice and insights, we can either lose more of the already weak earth and weaken ourself even more or become stronger and more healthy, not volunerable for the energies, but instead being able to work with them in a grounded and healthy way. “”””””This is realy something I am into. I have much dificulties feeling the earth energy. My teachers in this system is telling me it’s wery easy. But for me it has been a wery dificult part. I’m working on it for the moment and get more and more results though. I realy am happy everytime I’ve got results in this area beacase it seems to be wery important for me and my practise and wery dificult in the same time. I’m shore we will come back to this in the future discussions. with results I mean when feeling the earths energy and perhaps feeling the tan tien get a bit warm out of it.
WENDY WROTE:
“””””Sex without the heart is a draining situation too, same with porn, if you have a weak earth using porn it will drain you in a subtle way. Reading you used quiet a lot of porn in the past on your already drained energy is not healthy.And like you mentioned other people, like your former girlfriend or energies can drain you from energy also. “”””””
Yes this realy helps me for the moment. 🙂
The porn stuf is things quite easy to understund. It’s not dificult to feel it would be bad for you. Just looking at it in a broader picture. So it’s realy a matter of not going into it beacouse you now it’s not good. This is easy to realise if you use your wiser whole parts of your personality. I don’t go into this more I think it’s so obvious in some sense. And your sentences above just help me further to realise it and perhaps this time was this the thing I needed to hear to completely stop it.
The other things are for the future for me. This with having a relationship or multiple relationships is more the matter for me for the future. I have learned to deal with weakness in myself during the last years. I have learned to cut of complitely with energy robbing people. To manage to have a relationship the solution for me is to be wery aware of if it robs me of energy in any way. If it realy is from the heart from my side and from my partners side we are building something or if it’s more from selvish egoistical perspectives. I have to be better at this parts. I have to belive I can do it and be much more counsous about what happening realy in the relationship. To live easy in some way with this matters but not taking them easily but serious also. Somewhere from this statements I think I’m prepered to let the passion the love come into my life again. I need just to be aware of this matters. Realy aware. Then the self esteem will arise again but on a higher level then when I was younger. To be more aware to buid a good relationship and not letting the girls take my energy, it’s mine.
The porn stuf teaches you not to be a wise person to go into sex for other than the good reasons. This is why I think it’s a matter of interest for the whole of our society.
WENDY WROTE:
“””””Did you ever had yourself checked on entities? “”””””Not realy. I did a experiment with demons ones. I think I have written about this here somewhere before with Nnnoth. Shortly again: I read a christian book of how to get rid of demons. A while later I had a dream and during just the wery short time when you still are dreaming but your consious starts to think and analyse the dream I realised this is a demon. I started to tell it meanings like In the name of the lord I demand you to tell me your name. In the name of the lord I demand you to leave my body. And such kind of stuf. It started out a reacion in my body. The psoas! It started to get vibrations from there and during the next hour or so it increase dramatically and in the end my whole hip was jumping around in the bed and I get at least wery afraid and get up and was rushing back and forward in my quite small apartment before I was able to go back to sleep.
Otherwise this subject of entities is not something I usually think about but I believe this happening has some deeper fundamental thing to do with my illness. It hasn’t happened jet that I checked this out further.
Wery happy about this last post!
With regards S D
Thx dog
I put this one in the favorites for the future. Can’t realy aford to have any other treatments for the moment the one I have is realy expensive and will last for a couple of months.
Thx for the advises. I try to internalise such stuff as saying what you rely want’s into myself. It will be part of my future changes.
I haven’t looked at the site with the prostata beacase I can’t see how it fits into my picture.
Regards S D
Last night I went to bed at 2.30 am, I was cold of sitting behind the computer very long, I felt tired and not exactly happy happy. I had a blanket around me while going into the cold bed and couldn’t get warm. I was drifting again to your situation and I hated the mixture of coldness, loneliness, tiredness. It was an overall depressing feeling one you want to run away from. I just disliked the whole feeling of it and I understood your situation much better.
Only in the morning hours I got my feet warm enough I felt comfortable to fall into deep happy sleep.When happy, strong, connected with others cold is a teasing teacher, when tired and lonely cold is hatefull, depressing.
Have a nice heartful sunny day,
I hope you enjoy. The main focus of course should not be on the herbs but on chi gong. The prostate is important in the sexual act so keep it healthy.
I found that often we have unconscious resistance to our potential for being beautiful special creative beings, the resisting part of ourselves uses things like parasites, drugs, porn, tv, playing all the time with your friends ect. I have seen this allot with great musicians using drugs for this reason. So if you resovle the resitance then the porn addiction will fade away. I hope that makes since.
Great thread. A quick comment, if your Earth energy is weak, especially if that way from birth, your kidneys get tapped out trying to make up for the lack of boundaries. Hitting your body with cold water really slams your kidneys/adrenals. It’s OK if they’re in good shape, but it can make weak kidneys/adrenals even weaker as they try to overcome the shock.
SD, if I can another .02 on your illness: also be cautious with the thyroxin. In case you haven’t heard this, it can have negative long term effects on your thyroid by telling it it doesn’t need to make its own T4. And you’ve probably heard this a zillion times too; there are high quality complements/alternatives. I’m in the complementary care field, focusing on energy medicine. If you like, feel free to drop me a note at michaeldotlegeratgmaildotcom.
On the cold front, pardoning the pun, I’m deeply exploring the usage of the North pole of high quality magnets. The North pole 😎 definitely increases the sense of cold, but it doesn’t feel like the cold void, which is what SD and some of Wendy’s descriptions sound like to me. North pole energies really build up the kidney yin.
MichaelL, who had and still has some significant Earth/boundary issues, weak but repairing kidneys, and cold feet after long sessions with the North pole.
Hello Dolphin
Thx for sharing. Yes I belive also there is much problem with the thyroxin threatmend. Realy the most common threatment by doctors is a wery shallow one just treating the symtoms not the cause at all. This is one reason I haven’t done it jet. The doctor I’m going to meet has been in the normal medical field for ower 1+ years but have shiftet to a more alternative aproach. Mostly she is working with orthomolycal psychiatry treating schichofrenia with witamins as I see it. I don’t want to do so much with this before I meet the new dr, but perhaps I have reasons to come back to this later and maybe contact you then.
I have notices that my kidneys get hurt by cold. Sometimes I work outside in my teaching job and then I feel weak and the kidneys hurt afterwards. This talking with you has helped me realized what happening.
I will write a new thread on exercises and other stuff at the top soon beacase something has happened during my exercises that is interesting for my cure.
Yes it’s exactly so. And I don’t know just how many nights I fell to sleep first at about 6 a.m after eating some breakfirst.
What I realy not can understund is why you not fix your heater. Why experimenting with this if it’s makes you feel bad. Can’t see the reason for hurting yourself?
Sincerely S D
I add this:
At the age of 13-14 I was put on thyroxin meds, like my mother, my aunt and my niece, so all the women in the family were on the same drugs. My guess, the doctor has made many trips to Hawai 🙂
Anyway, I suffered from hyperventilation as well. Yet one good thing that doctor did, was saying that it was caused by my emotional needs, which kept ringing in my ears and helped me to realize my pattern.
I took the drugs every day for a couple of years, I don’t quiet remember time though. And one day I was done with it, saying to myself I am not gonna take this stuff for the rest of my life, my aunt and niece still do, and my mother stopped it after her heart attack a couple of years ago, taking it for 30 years!I refused to take it and I realized that I had to work this through within myself, yet it took many many more years to find the root of my needs, and still working…
But the very trick was to find myself, to love myself and even to be selfish in this, giving while being and feeling empty yourself is no good, you need a fair amount of selfishness, self protection to get out of the situation.
Look into your family, I can see the pattern very clear in the females of my family blood line, and unfortunately my oldest daughter has it too. I had her when I was not into any practice, so she inherited big time all my ancestral flaws.
Having chronic hyperventilation, burn out symptoms. And no matter my personal insights, my help and my intentions, she has to go through it as well…Hello Wendy
You wrote “But the very trick was to find myself, to love myself and even to be selfish in this, giving while being and feeling empty yourself is no good, you need a fair amount of selfishness, self protection to get out of the situation”
Do you meen this is comon psychological behaviour when having low hypothyroidism?
Also you did ask me earlier about if I have had checked if I had any entities. I told you a story about demons. Could this be something similar to what you cold entities or do you mean anything else and how to have them checked realy?
Are your advise not to take the thyroxins anyway?
Sincerely S D
I looked in a book I have called ‘the key to self liberation’ (rough translation), it is from a Belgian woman who is sort of channeling lots of things.
I never looked into it for this problem but here is her explanation of hypothyroidism (I translate if from my language):
‘You run away from the responsability to live this life, you run away in dreams and idealistic thoughts, in unreal fantasies. You run, you experience life as too demanding, you run to seek somewhere else. You take a side road high up in your mind/thoughts, that is a place where you can handle it, that is a place where you don’t need to live life fully. You don’t participate any longer, at first you hold on to others, then you start to climb higher up in your clouds. You feel better there, that is where you feel safe without fear. There is no real reality connection anymore, an unreal situation. Denial of your divine Self; a Run Away…’She adds as ‘cure’:
Warm feelings of Self awareness, a warm contact with the earth and your body. They are nice for you, do not fear. The earth is not full with black danger, come back and feel safe in your own warm inner sun. Feel protected in this divine center, your deepest Self, you don’t have to run away. Nothing evil will come over you when you live in trust. Create your own life, here on earth, not just in your dreams. Love yourself, manifest outward with both feed on the ground.There is a similar much longer description on the thyroid gland in general, but I spare you that for now.
As for entities, when your earth is weak you are very desirable for entities, so it might add an extra problem to the problem….
I have to run now, so maybe later more on this…
Thx Wendy very interesting.
I haven’t looked at the psychological aspects of hypothyroidism before. This was also quite on the spot. I recognize myself in this explanation at least partly and more how I was earlier than how I’am now.
Is thinking about the job I have. It’s not a job that I have dreamed about but I like it anyway. I have always been a kind of dreamer. More than living in the reality. My health problem have changed this nowdays I have to think alot on practical things and how to live my life on a day to day basis. I was also thinking about the dream of the bore theoretician and the feeling guy. The feeling guy is more down to earth so to say and perhaps it’s this part I have to develop firther. Not to dream about taking a Ph D for instanse. Perhaps later but let it go as it goes live more in the situation you are in right in this moment. This is some advises I have to myself.
The discussion about the girs or more rightly of the fear of relations is also a story of trust. Let things happen that is there. Feel joy over such greate feelings and embrace them. Some more advises to myself.
Is entities the same as demons. Is it some kind of energy creatures?
Much love to you Wendy and fix the heat please!
S D
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