I have been feeling that this latter half of 2005 has been extremely accelerated in terms of events on a personal level. We have all seen the events happening in the outer world (hurricanes etc.).
For the past four months or so everything has been so busy in the outer world, yet on an inner level things have become more settled, integrated and stable although practice time has been at a minimum because of outer events (that are driven by inner forces anyway).
This may only be a stage and might reverse itself in a moment. Any shared experiences?
Yes, I have felt a growing appreciation of center in myself. The practices touch me in a deeper way, more chi and more shen…meaning more personally connected circulation. What has shifted for me is the jing level as is reflected on the TV screen all over.
During all these years of practice I have tried to hold onto a marriage that functioned without engaging my dynamic center. The winds that passed over my home have been the dissolution of this long partnership. It feels the result of a newly pulsing center, like magma rising from the depths until it finds its release. The appearance of destruction.
So there is a refuge in the pulsing of a reliable organic center but also the deconstruction of old places where I sought refuge. baba
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