purple bagua/solar plexus

WARNING: this is long

this is from todays practice blog on the core channel expoeriment. i have a specific question about the purple bagua that apepared in the solar plexus. i’m including the entire blog entry to prvide thorough context for the question: what the hell is this purple early heaven bagua that moved into my soalr plexus today and what does it mean?

here’s the pract:

some small but interesting things today. i had to do a short pratice due to time constraints. i started with about 5 minutes of shaking and heel tapping, felt that for a moment, and then went right into sun and moon in the core channel whcih is where the shen directed me. this went on and on for a long time, over 15 minutes. up and down, up and down. at first, i wanted to be bored with it and do something else, but insteadof listening to teh monkey mind, i let it go and decided to just follow this and see where it was taking me. get it? I WANTED TO BE BORED. in other words, it was a amechanical psychological reaction from years of conditioning that has taught me doing the same thing over and over again is boring. i didnt NEED to be bored. i let it go, and went deeper.

what i finally esperienced with this was a very tangible connection between heaven and earth. above me was an early heaven bagua, and below me was the later heaven bagua, and i was the circuit in between, the lightening rod that connected them. the heels were firmly and solidly connected to the earth. what came to me at this point as i asked why this was going on so long is this answer: “you are poorly rooted. you have always been poorly rooted, and you dont even like to pracitce rooting to correct this problem. this is how you root and you need to do it.”

as the suma nd moon continued their journeying, i felt and observed this white smoke or steam arising in the core channel where the sun and moon touched eachother. it reminded me of smoke on the blacktop when you lay a patch. there was a thin purple line between the left and right and this steam or smoke rising from it.

the other interesting thing is that the right core channel where the sun moves appeared dark. the left channel where the moon lives appeared light. yin within yang and yang within yin? it seems to make sense. i wasstill cool onthe left and warm on the right, but this dark and light was deeper than flesh. it must ahve been the inner yin and yang. along with this i was beginning to get distinct warmth in my spine and coolness down my front. the flow of the microcosmic orbit with fire rising in back and water in fornt, precisely what i was looking for in this experiment, inducing microcosmic flow by working only the core channel.

now as i concluded this by pulling the purple star down from heaven, it came not as a star or shere, but as a purple bagua, and it stopped in the area of the solar plexus. i felt this for a moment, tuned into the green and white, and started the up and down “walking in place” in teh left and right core channel.

i always start going down on the right as yin likes to drop and up on the left as yang likes to rise. the movement stretched the bagua out and the energy started circulating up and downt eh three core channels–left right and center. as i progresed thru this, i noticed a shift in behavior of the energy. its movements became more pronounced as it passed the solar plexus. so the enrgy going down would kind of plummet, and the energy that was rising would really soar. as i drew them back to the soalr plexus there was a littel “resistance” and slowing, and then, as they crossed that point agian, ZOOM! they would shoot out. i got the sense that this was the energy shifting towards it opposite–yin becoming light yang and yang becoming heavy yin.

what is also interesting here is that the exercise was much more kinetically sensitive than usual. i typically ahve a lot of visuals and physical sensations, but here i was really involved kinetically and the forms or shapes the energy sometimes takes remained more abstract. no totem animals appearing and no me and mrs. columbo in passionate embraces.

as this exercise drew to a close and i came to rest at the solar plexus, i found instaed of a pearl, a purple early heaven bagua glowing luminously and spinning, whreas the golden pearl seemed somehow dim and reduced.

i finished with a sort of modified pangu mystical qigong in which i mixed the the white pearl adn green pearl instead of the sun and moon. it was a wonderfully viscous and sticky mix. the opeing and closing of the three cauldrons had something else to them today that i cant put into words. i wasn’t opening cauldrons, i was opeing infinite neutral space. an as i brought by hands down together at the close of the practice, i paused automtically at the third eye level and peered intot he neutral space. this is the first time i DID NOT DO IT MECHANICALLY. you know, when yer doing the practice and you say to yourself, ‘ok, this is where i paus e and look into the space, ok now move down some more, blah blah blah.”

wel thi stime i really paused and looked deeply into that space, and it was terrifying. i mean when i began to grasp what exactly i was looking into there, it was really really scary. and i think one of the reasons it was so scary is because it was me, and i never really noticed it before.