November 12, 2006 at 10:09 am #19202
Last wednesday becoming 41 I woke up realizing that in order to keep my inner youth I had to change myself. It was not a realisation out of mental deduction but as a sudden awakening when opening my eyes. I realized that despite my ‘believe’ of so called non-judgmental attitude I judge every day. I realized that because of experiences I get ‘ideas’, these ideas are like clay shaped into ‘believes’ and these believes become my personal truth, MY truth, and from that truth I ‘judge’, not in a ‘bad’ way but nevertheless…even not in a bad way it is creating ridgid thinking, ridgid feelings, ridgid body,…
the child in me was dying, in order to turn that death I had to let go all of my past ideas, my believes and be open again…November 12, 2006 at 1:42 pm #19203
Your thoughts about the subtle judgement that is inherent in perception and concepts (my words, not yours) reminded me of similar things I have dealt with.
I have two thoughts about it:
1) From TTC, Chapter 1, Addiss& Lombardo translation:
“Nameless: the origin of heaven and earth.
Naming: the mother of ten thousand things.
Empty of desire, perceive mystery.
Filled with desire, perceive manifestations.
These two have the same source, but different names.
Call them both deep —
Deep and again deep:
The gateway to all mystery”
To me, judgement is like naming and it is the mother of many things. While naming is more yang and creative, judgement is a false-yin controlled twist on that. So, in letting go of judging, I had to be careful to not throw out naming/intellect.
When I find myself naming some part of me as “judgement” (which is just another judgement!), I describe its energetic qualities: contracting, metallic, hard, shiny, square, dark. I then look for opposite qualities of, in this case, expanding, firey, soft, matte, round, bright. I might look for those qualities in the same space/layer of my body, or I might look for them elsewhere in my body, and just let them learn from each other.
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