A strong arm was suddenly but slowly coming towards my back, but I knew it would reach my heart, and the arm felt…evil?
I forcefully shook my chest and shoulders as I woke up, shaking off what was trying to enter me! I couldn’t Focus (say “hi” to the energy and describe it) as it was too powerful.
I found that I got more strength/protection if I allowed the energy in my chest to circulate in a clockwise manner. I then said “hi” to the part of me that was in fear, not the part that was “coming towards me”. As the part in fear relaxed, the “arm” came to my heart, my heart glowed, the “arm” dissolved, and I was rapidly back asleep
I don’t know where that energy came from, but it was a fun trip.
I focused on the feelings a bit yesterday, and found that the energy matched my father. He did spank me and yank on my ears, but I don’t think he ever hit me on the back. When I focused on the feeling more, I realized it was energetic attacks that he used to make on me when I was older and he couldn’t hit me.
My father has been dead for 10 years, so why would this occur now? I think because the Feldenkrais session I had last week significantly undid some holding patterns in my ribs, allowing me to deal with some of the underlying energetic issues.
And, yes, the feeling was of personal boundaries being violated.